confession

It always doesnt happen like what we expected . From the start . Till now
You talk to me . You make me watch you . You bring me out ..
Everything was so different before the first fight you gave me ...
Remember the first move you gave .. It was only holding hands .. It was during our 3rd month
when i ask why ? You told me i think its serious ..
We didnt always spend time together that much dont we ? Because youre busy with practices and competitons and performance . I did endure though sometimes it do get up to my nerve when we need to cancel our outing .
Then we had very fun bus rides and jokes . Ameer remember what happen under the playground block ? It was joke isnt it ? The day you teach me how to ride your very nice bike ..
and i was worried that you will get a car accident . The day i woke up 7 am in the morning with my tak mandi face and meet you at teban ? The day we headed town .. and walk the whole town to find bloody topshop .. just to but one baju ? That was the sweetest day wasnt it ? You told me no we are not like them we are sweeter . Remember the day both of us kutuk your ex and it was hell damn funny when you show me her name sign and i merajuk like one idiot ?
and always remember the days i always send you back home .. ? and yes remember the suprising message you gave me when i was in chiang mai and i missed you sbdc ..
And i remember 6 july , you do dont you ? Remember i ask , can i hold your hand for the last time and you let me ? And we hug and i cried .. and you hold my head , wipe my tears , kiss me
trying to calm me down but i couldnt help myself .. and after that remember what happen during the youth park competition .. under the teban blocks .. you and me .. we knew its gonna happen . till today now and forever . Yes .. its so much pain to let it go