confession

" I feel so bad . I dont know what to say now ? What am I thinking ? Why am I confusing myself ? Why didnt I pick up his call and call myself stupid when he needs to fly off ? Then why i dont wanna be his friend anymore ? Was it because someone in my past make me happy again ? Now is this for real ? I dont know ? Something is too fast . Please help me ?

Weird isnt it ? When someone who always hurt you a lot became so good you tend to hate someone who are so good to you . Isnt it nature ? I cant say anything . Whatever it is , i hope no rush things for me . I wanna admit , i still cant move on . & the guy in my heart will never change this fast .. because we are still close .
I cant get overboard then regret in future . Maybe he's not any normal human . He is Someone who i gave my respect too ? Now when we are close .. everything change too fast very fast .. i still luv ameer , I CANT DENY IT ANY FURTHER ... & you , make sg proud