confession

I wanted tomorrow to come badly .
But you lie . You always do . Why do you even exist inside my life
and .. And left me alone with a lie . Everyday a brand new lie . Till when , letme ask you till when

Till you see crystals falling from my eyes again then you will say Sorry and never will you do it again . Or Till you see how i did bleed myself . Now tell me till when ?

I bought your presents with my very own money . Now you jolly well said you dont want it .
What's all this ? I wont say youre my biggest regret . I wont say anything till you read what i post on my handphone notes everysingle night . I wont say anything untill you deserve your return . Can i say I hate you ? Never will I .
You lie . You lie a lot . I want to forget you right away . I need ! I need ...

Please stop crying mira , youre strong dont you ? Let me answer : im not ...
How come Im the one who you treated so unfairly from the others .

I cant stand it no more . Ill kill myself with painkillers .
I dont wanna cry anymore . I wont everything to be over ..
I LUV YOU