My life is now like a roller-coaster . Mix feelings all over .
If only anyone knows how i felt right here . Still it doesnt also solve anything .
Likewise , no one can solve this except for myself .
I know im not ready to go , i haven even serve my god when im here in this world for 15 years
I only go to him when i need something . Did i even thank him ? So god , im not ready to go .
Afterall , god gave me the sweetest thing no one could ever give me but I realised since I wasnt a great girl , he took all away from me . And gave me what i really did not want . There i realised how great is my God is . Since then i prayed my best to get over something so god could gave me another chance . Right now , i dont feel like actually im living . I lost my confidence , enthusiam and alot more . Still i believed god will give me a journey road to success and healthy lifestyle .
Whenever i felt that pain , I think about him . Of course , what if he just take away my life in a snap of your finger ?
I live to serve you but I didnt do a great job god but still give me a chance that i will do it .
I cant change the day I die because you stated it before i was born . But im just hoping my death its not coming when sometimes i feel like its like
Sometimes i even got scared to tug myself to bed , what if you just take away my soul when i was sleeping soundly .

But God , i really appreciate you for giving me a man who change my life . Who tell me off who i am eventhough he already left me for someone greater . Yes god , you know i cant get over it . Yes god , you know i always prayed for his happiness . But god , help me open his eyes and let him see how strong is my love and care . But i trust this , you decide everything but here i am to accept what you decide . But in other way , i push away bad things and grab great things which came to me from you .

Amen .

It wasnt a great day afterall , I didnt eat for recess .

I just realised i dont really talk to anyone in

school , great success !

Just dont talk to anyone because hell i got enough shits

because they think they are much more matured

Im not , so why mix ?

I rushed home for a while to see if [ ] is online ,

unfortunately he's not

Headed woodlands for my religious class which ended at 10.30
chilled at my cousin place till it was 11 pm .
Cab-ed home then before that send my nephew to Jurong West house

Since [ ] is going out with his family tomorrow he promised me

we are sooo going out next week .

I guess this week is really sway , But hopefully god will always be with me

I hope everything will go in a slow motion way .

Math Paper = F9
Malay ? = A1

After examanitions and practice , cab to juying ..
Why ? HAHA , chill pill ... i feel so young -.-"
Headed to wak din , pack food and eat under block ...
Feel so pooor , HAHAHA
Oh , met ameer also board the same bus
But i tell you i didnt talk the whole journey :P
As pernormal drop @ Jurong East and board bus with [ ]
Haha , he got on my nerve .. He said i was very masai because of the

baju busok " , that idiot uhhh .. So inside the bus had a little chat

and he keep on disturbing me .

Send him under his block and cab-ed home .

WHAT A DAY ?

I LOVE YOU , PINNOCHIO BOY

[ ] is not feeling okay .

But here i am trying ma best to get him all cheer up

Still nothing aint working , But what your bonda say is true :

Everything happen for its own reason

You cant put the blame to anyone because God wants it to happen .

I dont care if you throw your tantrums to me , Yes i have feelings

But its okay . I feel you now boy

*bite lips* my tears are flowing out

Nah , ill be here beside you whenever you need b .

Cheer up please ? I wanna see the smile on your face

I love you . I miss you too

God please be with him

Be strong ! You got my mood flew away

Give me strength god , im facing alot of problems

during my prelim week

I promise , i wont let you down ...

The cute little look like us

us ? [go figure]

* ini siapa rasa chili , kau rase sendiri*
Where ever i go , I see this "cool kids"
I mean they think they are so popular
When they are actually trendy mother fcuker
Just wanna wear like cool kids do ?
Wait sg cool kids , Na-uh .
Drink , Drug , Smoke to become cool kids
Heavy pose ? I mean i look you people like a trash .
I aint kidding , I rather be alone not mixing with anyone
Rather than wasting my time . Im not that typical
Rather than you calling people typical , look at yourself
You behave like one typical . I aint scared of your big gangster who world
Because , ma big gangster is the gangster he's scared of / Lol

I dont run into people who got cliques and well known
just because they are this "cool kids"
I dont follow kids who wear so slacky , I mean slacky ..
Did you "cool kids" laughed at people who wear so slacky
Now youre of them too , wear as if youre slacking under blocks .

Whaaat ? Dance ? Tecktonik . LoL
Cool kids dance tecktonik , thats real cool
*thumbs up*

At least , i aint one of you "cool kids"
who got rolling , or bitch about each other

Remember before you are born in this scene
I was born first

From now on , ill try to not talk in school anymore -.-

Lets say ? Let make this school world only mine

Eat alone . Sit alone . Talk alone .

I wanna clear up ma mind how i wish im already away from sg right now

Geography paper was a disaster = SLEEP !

Physics paper was manageble still look around for answers = COPY !

[ ] keep giving me random message which make me burst out into laughter

also .. make me feel like i wanna kill him any moment .

I skip art because I wanted to meet [] since he' didnt want to

i shall do FULL HOURS math revision & art !

I regret skipping art , wtf ?

I have been dreaming alot this days . I even wonder when i was in the bus

Whats wrong with me ? You go figure

I rather get my mouth sew up rather than getting people to ask me to shut up

I rather get myself alone rather than people asking me what to do

Ya' feel me ? No ? Just go figure idiots

B lost his phone , thank god he inform me

because i was waiting for him .

What a sway luck , nevermind learn from mistake .

Next time even if its spare phone , take good care of it ?

I miss you

Oh no i didnt study for physics and geography paper :(

Thanks to all me who waited for him and he's actually asleep

Should i stay back for art or should i NOT ?

Need to do tons of math revisions and also chemistry

Lets say , i love you ? Rock on baby .

i still dont feel like talking to anyone , so you go figure

on how to cheer me up . please ?

Even if the sky is falling down , Im with you

I keep on laughing when i think about you

To think back , I rather be with you than my friends

To think back , you think nicely when we are alone

I love you

No .. Im not having a great day today except for art

I took only 45 minutes for my malay paper one . Unfortunately

Alif said my format was totally wrong -.-?

Glad to say , English Paper Two was a great one , I managed to finish it all up

Hopefully i will pass with flying colours , Amin !

I got irritated with some things . Dont feel like talking to anyone

Curse that person who drink all my milk off , it changes my mood from yesterday till today

Im sad , Thank god kenneth , yi wei and [ ] make me laugh .

Lotsa love , mira

If im ever a geek in school uniform , it doesnt concern you at all

After all , i aint this Attraction-Seeker . Im still the same with or without friends

I mean i dont need bright colours bra or maybe short skirts .

I dont need to flirt to get spot on & I never need to get caught by DM

just to get name . I mean so what if you got boys all over your hips

Do i look like even care ? LOL , nope because your boys suck

while mine , they rock it well .

I mean before you wanna comment on me , look at yourself

You have this chop of attraction seeker . Get a life

No , i never wanna turn behind and look at the past

why should I ? Im thrown far .

I dont need misses , Ya so what if im arrogant

I rather be one . Im not kidding .

I just hate this stupid thing

And you readers , please mind your own business

You people are irritating me . Sup with that ?

Who i wanna be with . Its none of your problem

Go fix your life before asking me . Catch my words ?

No ? Suck it

Someone knows how to pujuk me already sey

Hahaha .. Idiot , had a great chat with you yesterday .

Wish me good luck for today language papers

Love ya .

I nak popeye , please popeye ?

Finally Social Studies was really a managble one

Math , was more tough then i expected

Dissapointed ? Yes , will try ma best for paper two !

Touch up on Art , preperation boards .

& off it goes , good lucks final work piece

Run home , online !

Next two weeks promise ?

Meet ya soon , honey !

Cant wait for prelims to over , please god bless me ...

to passerby : Wah , you think you guess correctly , TEEET !
wrong guy la beb dont think you know when you actually know nothing .
MYOB ! ...... *flips hair* let me ask this : must it always be ameer ? -.-

you just needed more .

After a long period of time , i finally get what i desired

It was suprising but at point of time , i was enjoying

Now i dont care what people are gonna say

I dont care who am i with now , figure who

Because i met this someone special that spend
his whole sunday afternoon and night with me

Talking like nobody business , Laughing like nobody business

most of all , make the earth like it was only ours

Hug me and kiss me when i needed it . Talk to me under the trees

Because he never reveal and we take it as our secret love

I had fun today , not because of my sixth monthsary with ameer

because i met someone i have been longing to be with alone

Im starting to fall for you again , the guy i met at the bus stop

I love every moments and i want it again , soon !

I love you [ go figure ]

26 July , 5.15 pm .. bus-stop [ im treasuring everymoments]

I headed to somewhere with my parents to get my kicks bought

payed mum 6k$ ring and off they send me to watch da' showcase

and i had fun with someone during that night also

k bye !

My malay oral = suck it up girl !

Baby make me laugh because i was extremely sad

At least he bother , HEH ..

Then he went for his rehersal which makes him so busy and tired

still baby text me when it ended.

So i told him what i bought for his bonda and also himself .

SWEET RIGHT ? nyeet baby nyeeet

Green dickies and Chanel brooch

Please god , remind me to bring it tomorrow :(

Im a forgetful girl ...

Now baby is asleep w/o tellin' me

nevermind , im well use to it

Cant wait for tomorrow !

*kisses people*

GOD BLESS

Im busy preparing for prelims .

When i was busy doing my work , i texted B

telling him what happen today . He giggled !
Then i decided to catch a movie with him again this saturday

but he told me not to confirm with any plans .

And i decided to survey kicks on friday and get it on saturday

Well , i feel kinda irritated when people start texting me

I mean ... go figure

Cause i only stick to one , and my desicion

Im not ready to contact anyone ..

I nag at some idiot -.-" because he has not been revising .

HAHA , i know i nag like AH-MAH !

& so , do study/revise before going for dance practice ...

yes .. " BRIGHT FUTURE"

well , juggle your things well before +.+

Psst , i miss you alot ..
Please dont come into my dreams .

& how the hell can i dream of you during my 5 minutes of sleep ?

Must be thinking about ya alot , well !

Gonna see you grooving this saturday , love

This post is totally for eeza baby flizo

Well girl , Happy Sweet Seventeen

Though youre still my new friend , you always try to make me smile in anyway

I dont care if you always bully me , im patient

because im too small to bully you back

Thanks for invited me to the night studies because it will always make me laugh

And thanks alot for the wake up call you gave me .

After all , good luck for your studies and continue to teach .. ME !

hahaha , will see ya soon girl

Love you ... So now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EEZA

So today i went somewhere to buy things for suprise party tomorrow .

So the first person i saw is ? Baby Mum . So i stalk her

LOLxzx , nah im not kidding

So i called him up , nah he didnt attend school .

chitty chatty chat , and hang up

He gave me this sarcastic joke which get through me , but nah i follow with the flow

It was great school day afterall , hell alot of free periods !

So i send him both songs , well the 1st try was totally i using cher's voice and mine

to mix it and of course we edit the base

all thanks to uncle super duper good microphone , nyetnyet

So after all that , decided to record again

definately this is our voice , baby said it was kinda okay -.-"

cher's and i duo it , will upload it very soon !

Love ya baby and people

Everyday i look at my phone hoping for a reply from you
But when i keep on waiting

This feeling of giving up keeps on growing

But still god gave me strength that keeps me waiting .

Whenever i plug in my earpiece . It will reminds me of you

because i keep listening to your voice

Whenever i open up my book and read , It will reminds me of you

because our first picture is my bookmark .

Whenever i went to bed . It will reminds me of you

because of the bear you gave me .

Whenever i open up my wardrobe It will reminds me of you

because of the nike tee you gave me .

Now that we are far apart . Ill treasure those things .

Bless me god

How i wish i could see his sad face whenever i nag again ?

Well at last im done with my cover up song .
Due to tears and flu , it wasnt that really nice

But people said it was *thumbs up*
Bad quality due to webcam sucky ..
last of all , its for muhd ameer

But i know he dont bother listening to it -.-

whatever it is , im done with what i really wanna do .
Just gonna keep it rolling ... next song up : Too late for us

Nah ill keep myself lock in the room from next week onwards

I dont even know why im onlining now ..

Dont feel like anything good up here .

Calow , readers . I told you im done here and why

the hell i keep updating .

IDIOT

This idiot necklace makes me go crazy !

Afterall , mum promised if i passed my prelims .
she promised me this

& Daddy , i wanna own this please please please

Bad luck day .
Get well soon unfeeling leg , God Bless !

Curse her for taking away my recess .....

Converting my song .. because its for ameer . Just a cover up song .

Hahaha , hopefully its gonna be kick ass .

Because i have been practising it in class / bus / bed ! basically everywhere .

cute eh ? I saw you outside the window just now , you was smiling

Wait its my imagination but you said HELLO ? *slap face*

Gotta go study , i want those things badly :(

His all time favourite picture*

So i sat alone in the class facing the window and smile
Out there , there was Ameer smiling
I sat alone singing his favourite song
I sat alone talking by to myself
Im not silly .

Then I headed home as fast as i could
Tryna get some nice nap , when mum shouted at me
because my eyeballs started to bleed & I shouted at her back .
Someone texted me giving me a bad news .
I cried , I bite my lips till it hurts badly .
SuperPinnochio came up to me telling me something which tickles my tummy
How cute can he be ?

I online waited patiently , then someone came up to me
He make me laugh too , we ended the the conversation because i wanted him
to do math since prelims is already coming .
He told me to have the best sweet sixteen birthday ever & i need to get
I TOUCH FOR HIS BDAY , idiot uh ?

Then i had my meal and started to sing Pinnochio favourite song since he make me laugh
And timberland boots came up to my mind which im getting it this friday
People said its gonna be SEXAY if i know how to rock it well /

After all i cant wait for saturday and see Pinnochio @ zheng hua
the first place i caught him having competiton last year .

So we canceled our moving :( nah next time .
he's having performance tomorrow @suntec .
Rock it well baby !

this was me two years back .

Life have been a little bitchy this few months

after all . I never did smile like I used to

I realised i can never vanish the friendship i make

because i treated everyone different from one another

I can never forget the memories i cherish with ex boyfriend

because to admit , my saturday was the best if i get to spend with him

Now i cant bully anyone like him to follow me and shop the whole town

Now no one can nag at me and stop my nonsence shits

Now no one can accompany me like he do because sometimes we didnt attend school on the same day

Now whose gonna fall sick as the same day as me like he usually do ?

Likewise , the only thing i have left is bear !

Which accompany me and stays with me .

The nike tee which i always wear when i miss him

and the thermometer i stole from him which got his salivar on it

To admit , i miss muhd ameer so much

and this sunday its gonna be our 6 months

since we ended our journey as r/s for 5 months 2 week .

i still wants it to go strong

will update soon readers , im no longer in cyber world

So i sat alone in my room . I know god was with me

Believe it or not i talk to myself . Well i shall say i got a great chat with God .

I was asking God , that i really miss pinnochio , he gave me this strong feeling to call B .

So yup i called B . I was feeling happy nah just because i got to listen to his voice even for a minute .

So i ask God , why this things happen ? I ask God to give me strength to fight this damn thing .

Because God gave me everything . I live for him . So yes i pray .

To be honest I feel strong now , Because i believed God will always be with me .

I cant wait to go for another therapy now . Because i just cant wait to end eveyrthing .

Be strong , I know its gonna end though its middle stage . Love your life .

God ask me , why you should just stay in this manner when history cant rewind .

Well i know you people think i silly , but HEY !

why i said its all god , because he pop up everything .

K bye people , nah im not talking random

Off to pray and kiss baby , he inside my room . NYET NYET

ITS BABY BEAR WHICH BABY BOUGHT FOR ME FOR V.DAY ....

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I gotta keep tryin'

Gotta keep my head held high

Im fighting this damn thing .

Pray together that death wont occurs

Pray to god its gonna end

With name of allah i pray , amin !

because its on 17

Aint about what is waiting at the other side .

I gotta be strong , just keep pushing on

I went out from house without bringing veto tee

i dont know, he never inform me he's going sentosa

Adeq & I headed to sentosa

when we at bishan , gee called

but then veto suddently said this

" change it to cheesefries "
WHAT THE HELL ?

when gee told me to get them food -.-

they ordered me KFC and vivo doesnt have KFC

so they ordered LJS

so i got them what they wanted :P so nice right ?

So actually we thought got this beach party

AND IT WAS FALSE ALARM

hancur sia member :P

Then veto , gee , alif and fauzie headed to vivo

while me and adeq chill outside cafe delma

lieing down cause i cant stand my eyes , body , head

& we headed back home ?

and suddently when i hacuuu " there goes blood "

sumpah paiseh . so i sat down alone ..

and cab home .

Baby got me accompanied when i was boring @ sentosa

26 more days . 1 week off from school .

lets get ready and fight it off

pray to god , amen !

Its not gonna be like any other weekends like

5 months ago .

Well , lets get this right .

Weekends must so equal to FUN !

Im heading sentosa with Emelda and Adeq today .

k bye !

Baby is at east coast i guess ? Well , im goin' to beach also

i bet he is busy cycling

hopefully i remember to get baby mum something and also for himself

so kind right ? :P

Now im not gonna miss hugging baby because im hugging him everynight

:P

because why ? only he know i know

yknow baby ...... the thing

and i dreamt about baby mum when i was busy sleeping early today

oh ya we broke up , but i keep calling him baby

ah mampus uh , sooner or later i got if off

maybe uh ?

HAHAHA .

i wanna siap ...

LETS GO BIKINI TIME BABES

Azlan has been such as an ass :P

*that eurasian boy , eh azlan eh !

ya promise

I need to meet Veto asap because i need to pass him

stussy tee ASAP , and we have been gossiping about azlan

HAHAHAHAHA

was not suppose too , but veto was too curious and hella K-P-O

nyet nyet

Well after all , it doesnt matter what and why .

It doesnt what ex boyfriend are going to do

Because i only have a lil time left and he's not gonna bother

dedicated to someone : pinnochio love

Remember it takes one second to lose

Sometime what you wants isn't what you get

but in the end you get it so much better than what you wanted

The most cruel thing a person can do is to forbid someone from

saying "I love you " to the person she loves

yet it is more cruel to force someone to say " I love you not"

to someone love the most .

To love is to risk not bein' loved in return .

To hope is to risk

To try is to risk failure but risk must be taken

because the hazard in life is to do nothing .

I was finally getting over ya & actually believing i dont need you

I was finally accepting the fact that you had another girl

Then you smiled at me and ruined it all

How can i forget you when you are always on my mind ?

How can i not want you when your all i want inside ?

How can i let you go when I cant see us apart ?

How can i not love you when you control my heart

That sooner or later i would believe it

But now i realised that it makes me wants you more

You hurt me more than i can deserve

how cruel can you be ? I love you more than you deserve , why am i suck a fool

I dont wanna stay at home the whole day so i met melda

Afiqah , was there too

Shared some problem , and chill

Sorry for nonsence faces , im sick

I dont know who am i now

because i cry so sudden when i bath myself .

because i cry before i tug myself to bed

because i cry when i sing to myself

because i cry when i was alone in the bus

because i cry when i was dreaming

because i cry in my sleep

I wonder why but im scared

Thanks Alif Aircho for the clear up !

Lets recap aiteee , I still wanna make the public know

I know fighting isnt a great thing god doesnt like it

But hey letme say this , God also doesnt like people who BITCH .

am i right ?

Certainly i do . so dont try to be like one angel !

Now twist the story but hey everything turns out to be pointing at YOU

.....

Ya since you call me BITCH g' . SCRAPPY HE WONT LICK HIS SPIT .

HAPPY SCRAPPY :P , hahahaha :P

Wonder why i call you that , go figure

Now hella you wanna bitch , goo

Because ive seen something on your face

Hey youre so immature , i mean let me say

You have been bitching and dare to say alot OF NC do

I mean im asking about ya and not others

I know i shoud have fought back but thank god my head was in pain ..

Shall see you soon scrappy and cheappy !

SOOOOO , DA GETTING BABY I-TOUCH FOR THE BIRTHDAY

BAIK EH , OH YA WE BROKE UP

SO WHATSUP WITH THAT . IM STILL GETTING HIM THAT :P

If you think you feel bad , then why the hell

you listen to one part of the story , WHICH is from

NATASHA AZHAR

I mean , hella fcuk you dont even know me

you have this ... mind to bitch about me ?

Well , what was that suppose to mean

The post , you told me you assume ?!

NOW , FCUK IT MOTHER FCUKER

no appology

I never expected that .. from you

NEVER

Never did i BITCH about you like hella how the way you did to me

You dont know what was i FEELING when you said

I WAS TRYNA GETTING A.S FROM NC

Now when YOU know what happen then you wanna say

SORRY

gossiping ? WHY THE HELL YOU GOSSIP ABOUT ME

& NOW HELL ALOT OF PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT THIS

who mouth should get chillied

Oh ya , we was once a popular couple

FCUK IT EVERYONE

MYOB !

YOU TOLD ME THIS

" GIVE UP BITCH , HE AINT GONNA LICK YOU BACK "

LET ME SAY THIS TO YA

" GIRL , YOU'RE DIRTY , YOU JUST LICK YOUR SPIT BACK "

I update for the third time today ..

I headed to central KFC to study with eeza and naddy

well i thought it was 3 of us only , but there was ella , ayim , ? and ??

Well we had fun studying at the same point laughing our asshole off

Faizah have been pestering me to eat , so yup I ATE .

I headed home first since i stay the furthest :p , not faaair !

Then when i was walking to the MRT station , i vomited :(

I get to talk to Baby today till he went for riding again ?!

i was super worry about his safety and his cute handsome bicycle ..

But he was home safetly and sleeping soundly when

i irritated him by calling baby alot of time till kena scold

Still baby layan me in cute way and now he's off to bed :P

I LOVE BABY !

Oh ya in the afternoon Baby and I had a chat .

Ya he keep disturbing me , he call me pig because of my cheeks

so i called him kucing GIGI .. only he knows why

So i have decided before im heading to sentosa this sat

Im getting baby mum something .. Still wondering what she likes

BABY U BETTER PASS TO HER I TELL YA '

Im meeting baby tomorrow :P

to pass him TANGS voucher so he can buy

whatever he like .

So i got the chance to meet BABY :P YAY !!AYAYA !!!

My baby he's like a star , he came into my life

he fillied my heart with joy , he took my pain as if it was his

he provided me with the love that no one could give me

he was the pillar when i was falling & he gave me the shoulder to cry on

also he was my strength when i was weak

everyday , i will sit and pray so he will remain as sweet as he is

that is the reason im gonna love him till my last breath

& all i ever wanted was to be apart of his heart

for us to be together and never to be apart

no one else in this world could compare the love we share

and have so much more than i thought we ever could

In your eyes i see my present and future

and the past you look at me , i know we will last long . someday maybe ?

& also i hope that you will come to realise

how perfect are you seen through my eyes

god is love ,

love mira

This post is gonna be Vulgar you people with ever read !

First of all , HELLA FCUK why the HELL you tag me like that ! Im SURE you know what happen with me ! BEING CRAZY HUH ? Comeon if you think youre correct enough go up to me and tell me on my face , that I HELLA GONNA DIE SOON ! FCUK IT MOTHER FCUKER !

**, Who are you tellin' me Ameer is being a crazy boy if he still stick with me ! Hey , he never make any of this desicion . I believed its God who make him think and do what he wants .

Get over it Girl , why are you so over board . Jealous ? Then FCUK OFF !

*** , why are the fcuk you people are saying that and hell thing are going on your way . It never gonna bring me down . Try put down your name , we shall see who are goin down then . ME OR YOU ? and hella fcuk , remember this i never lose ..

**** , If you bitch tryin to say that because you wanna me to ket go of ameer , ITS NEVER BE A NO . Hey , he still treat me the same , he still care for me the same but MORE .

SO KEEP WAITING ...

AND IF YOU THINK IM GOING DOWN SEEING YOU with my ex boyfriend .. Im not , but we shall see that someone gonna lose of something . Only if i know who are you , its gonna be sweet till you lick my sweet fingery shoes'

God is love !

love , mira . PEACE

*abang azlan* under there got pants ! adidas somemore .. :D

Well baby got me accompanied the whole day today till he went for gym and riding with his bro

I hated when he go for a ride , well anything can happen on the roads ?

Baby move our movie outing to next saturday since he's having family day

So means , i can go out with my girls !!!

Prelims is three more weeks away ?
I swear im not ready .. Well hard works pay off .

Im starting studying tomorrow hopefully *pray to god*

I love pinnochio still , bye people !

Yesterday was an act today is the reality .

Whats confusing me ? If only i can settle this things out .

Im feeling down at the same point I will never give up

I LOVE YOU , pinnochio boy

and i never thought this would have happen

I cant stand this pain anymore . You know im not gonna be here for long .

If you chica wants to HAVE him , go

because you get over him by his style by his grooves

So you have been LIKING him since we were TOGETHER and when we are not

stop asking your idiotic friend name HAIKEL to help .

Go and get him yourself like how I make him fall for me

Because you are HELLA CHEAP , girl !

Just because you wanna have a boy who can GROOVE well like he do

THEN be my guest bitch !

I never LOSE anything . Not now and Its not gonna be ME !

In your next world , I wanna see which GIRLFRIEND of yours who

can get what you dream for and the MEMORIES we had

The cute names we tell each other . The fights we have

The sorry's i gave . Because they cant never be like ME

likewise . REVENGE - IS -THE-SWEETEST-THANG

though it makes the enviroment worst

Im gonna make you LICK IT

Remember , i never ever fall for your style .

If you think you look the best . OTHERS do

ITS SIMPLY ONE REASON , its simply you /

some two person from NC is getting a grab hold of that

the same two person who is so v. very lucky who got what they wanted today

but only one already received it and the other one is staying at far end ?

GO FIGURE .

Baby and I watch movie today , its my treat . Sweet right ?

He hug me during the whole movie show because i was cold & so do he

and because he was scared !!

Baby and I decided to bus home because my legs was too tired to stand .

Since it was packed we was seperated for 1 hour

so i kept texting him inside the bus and he was blushing and he didnt woke me up

when it was my stop ! I was fed up but baby keep teasing me

I laugh

Baby letme have goodbye hug and we had bus stop peck kiss , aww !

He love his stupid red dickies , which is FREE ..

& i had a great chat with Liy' !

and shazran , when i come back here ill be the manager of FN

and get you guys one suit of adidas .. only if my daddy is a millionare

, hug me and never let go . I LOVE YOU PINNOCHIO

Why must you said you dislike your people when you actually talk about them

behind their backs ?

Why must you "trying to control" everything when you was not suppose too ?

Why must you only mix with popular people , thinking you will take over me ?

Why must you always think Ill put you first than SONYA ! MELLISA ! when i wasnt bother

Why must you always think that I always hated the person you talk about always

and now she's my TWIN GIRL ..

Why must you always think that I must actually listen to you when actually I was laughing behind your ass .

Why must you not think that your babygirl doesnt talk about you when she is to me

and guess what ?we talk it so dirty

Why must you not think about your ex boyfriend feels so hard to let you go when he always wanted too ..

Dont think youre actually an angel , fuck it motherfucker ...

@#@$#@$#%$

dad enough , will update a proper post

I get to chill grill with my ladies just now include adeq lolipop ♥

I feel so stupid because i go search for baby dickies all around sg as there are no stock for red 30

Da jumpeee da :)

I drop @ chua chu kang and meet emelda and qeelia !

Then i met haidkal because i want his vans shoes ,

comeon my ex boyfriend got same size as me ? NOOOT

he's shorter but his leg is enormous

Melda and I followed Qee to her house place and chill

We talked about men , sex ! and cheap g's

as normal we laugh like nobody business and we talk about NIC ! LOL

All of us went to our seperate ways , i headed woodland to meet adeq ♥

cb , miss her siol . So we had our dinner at BK

DID I MENTION , her mum got me BOTTLES OF PERFUMES ?!

thanks , i love you !

So i went back home as carrying paper bags as if i shop alot

but its free things man ...

Im meeting baby and emelda tomorrow plus feefa !

ALL OUT MELDA , MESTI ALL OUT PUNYA ..

& need to get flizo dickies too , i tell u free dickies siolxzx

I would like to thank you , muhd ameer bin sulaiman

who never fails making me smile since we were together /

You make me think about you every single time and you was my pillar of strength when i was falling .

Youre the one who make me stay strong fighting this damn thing , which im surviving .

Give me courage and confidence that this thing can be cured .

You poured me tears when i was in pain . You hold me tight to let me feel that this world is only about you .

I kept thinking why is it me who deserve this pain when I went through alot .

But you keep telling me that youre gonna make me laugh so this pain will go away .

I burst out knowing that , I thank god so much that youre still here with me when we are not together no more .

I thank god that he make you change youre mind and letme be with you closely .

I thank him for answering my prayers and

I always thank him that you gave me another chance to see me changing .

xoxo , mira sherman !

Another thing which is keep hangin on my mind is this .

I never thought people i trusted actually backturn me ,

I thought they were my pillar of strength but they are worst than demons .

Since when ? I bitch about her . Since when ? I got her secret reveal to her boyfriend .

I can use that " as , TELLING THE TRUTH too ?

God is love , God is fair .

And i hope she's gonna get hit by karma no matter how long its gonna take .
I love you god !

God is love

At last someone decided to duo with me , the song Part of the list .

& its for baby . Im very nervous about the recording , i know im gonna cry singing it

Its a sudden change of mind . But i try my best

I wa never okay today , alot of things happen to me . I dont know why the hell i cry so much

Im facing alot of problems but luckly Feefa <3>

Damn , trust me , i miss her alot . We chitty chitty chat chat and decided to meet on saturday

Dont ask me what happen during my nights just pray im okay

and im okay with baby . CB ! I LOVE HIM AND HE GOT FB READY ..

Basically today baby's having AYG performance . And me ? Iwas busy sleeping for good reason
Well , school are having 2 confirmed H1N1 cases . Baby got me accompany the whole morning
He's having performances at TAKA this saturday , and im still wondering what time it ends cause i wanna catch movie with him or maybe chill . For a good reasons too ..

I watched Jason video on FB , and baby was in it HALF NAKED?! comeon , he's hot ... LOL
i didnt get to chat with Twin G' today , im hell eager to share something with her .. She knows what is it . Its already 12 ? Gotta go to sleep , cant wait for saturday ..

Well for rid , i appreciate your thanks bro . But to think about my examples . Im in the winning point . This aint about winning or losing actually . Its about respect and betrayed / Yknow about it . Now do you pity her than me ? I bet me ? Keep your mouth tight . Ill got this things cleared out bro . And i dont wish any hard feelings from F5 ..& another thing . I got my very own reason . Please dont look at me as if im finding fault aite , Its a bad impression of ya' ..
& and i know you wanna protect her but you gotta know the full stories before spitting out anything . PEACE BRO ... since i look up on you , ill try get it to your ways . Iaint want any party to hate me and please dont put my problems with ameer in this . Its not fair , its our relationship problem and never did ameer reveal all to you . And please change the mindset that yknow know everything ...
Ill finish this shits , to make you happy . Because im not selfish . I rather have the pain not you thats the reason . I never do anything to her even its the fifth times but one more , i want a taste of her , and you got me to that bro !

I never felt any better before , I miss you
I regretted for not having my things in a right way
I never though you couldnt stand , I never thought you care

But you proved me wrong , despite the egoness in you still have the sweetness
I never thought youre gonna wipe my tears but you also did stare into my eyes
You make me cry as if i was at the end , You hug me tightly so i that i could feel alright

Im not gonna post here on what happen , Because its never gonna end .
Believed me ? Because im believing in myself .



Lets skip that , its tearing me ..

I was dissapoint on someone , i never believed that i just trusted her
after all she backturn me ? As if i did something to her
Well , god shows me who you are now . God shows me you make me hated someone
But that someone is a great person. God shows me everything
I thank you allah , now you *fcuk your mouth*
& i shall see you soon, wait why should I ?
You have been making up , alot and alot of stories
Because you sucks , now there is no need to act
Because i act better than you do , and now realised that
never act infront of someone who act beause you tend to be revealed

What can i say , he grow up real much ? Lol
i was laughing the whole time browsing through some old pictures on fs
and i saw this . See the hair ! THE HAIR !
At least this picture makes me go smiling the whole time /
He told me a sudden issue which i wouldnt wanna post about
I aint gonna accept the fact , But i promised he will have it on his birthday
Likewise , its very hard desicion .

After all , i hope god gonna make me stay real strong .
I hope he play a part too ? I wish he will
Like what his friends told me , stay strong . I cant have everything my way
Like what , Kak said , i wont lose anything
God wants it that way , Ill accept it .
God wants karma to hit me back , Ill accept that
But i beg you God this aint a right time when i know you want it this way
So i prayed to you God , please make me busy .
I pray to you God , to make me happy for the last time Im here
I pray to you God , that you can talk away my bad attitude and make him a happy soul
I cant stand anylonger .
He's the best , and you know how much i suffer

some conversation between my mum and aunty

Mum told my aunt she might follow daddy to Dubai next year
Mum told me i need to follow cause she doesnt want me to study here .
But mum said , she maybe doesnt wanna go . But i wanna leave singapore for good
and start a fresh there . Only Kipas know why ...

happy im leavin?g , ill sew every dickies with your name .
so you will remember me whenever you wear it .... Its gonna be the last thing .
Im flying away ..

I will upload , school girls pictures soon .
We were messing up the school toilet with cakes and powder
It was terribly fun , and my hair and face was also covered up with cakes .
So i skipped art because i feel so dirty , and headed home sleep like a pig .
I have been missing alot with baby , i miss him alot
Really alot :( We have not texting so much like we use to -.-"
Well , need to focus on my prelims first and set some time to chill grill with my
TWIN G' sooon , real soon ! If you guys have been wondering who
Its Little Naddy*

Baby's going out with his boys tomorrow , he didnt tell me where he's heading to
Because he know ill go and find him , muahaha , CRAZY !
Im heading somewhere to have movie date with adeq lolipop <3 Off now people , byeeee



PEOPLE , I CHANGE NEW PLAYIST , DO CHECK OUT NEW SONGS

So i headed to JP to get cherlene birthday cake for tomorrow
suprise party which is plan by ME ! as usual :)
I wanted to get it from BreadTalk but JP B.T dont sell any
I was lost , luckly qis tell me the way , but still it was the wrong way
I had a great time talking to my twin G' almost every night , her random-ness
always got me laughing my ass off and smiling widely .
Jum main pantun - pantun , and i was the best . Lol !

I wish i was in SOTA right now :( , and im really wish i could get in into NAFA
for stage arts . I wanna study aerospace too . Too much dreams to catch
But i really wanna get into stage arts thats the reason i wanna get active in drama again

Baby here is busy with practices this whole month , busy with gym
As usual , we only text each other during night hours ,
Im trying to deal with everything well
He said he didnt wanna bother me till prelims is over , damn !
So one month means month , takmu degil
nanti dia mesti cakap ini " takmo tyr la , binget siol"
HAHAHA , DAMN CUTE I TELL YOU
and when i called him just now , he was busy bathing , hahah soo fcuking cute
I LOVE YOU LAAA , ass hole


bye , i wanna chat with twin g' now , she so cute :) like me ofcourse la
she look like me sia , hahaha !

I do not know what Im thinking now
I have weird dreams . Too many things to handle.
Now I don't feel like talking to anyone
weird ? I only need boyfriend now
But he aint talking to me also

Lets be dead , Im useless .