confession

Boyfriend told me i'm useless even though i still feel I am

Because he criticise me but he told me , I'm not one because I'm his girlfriend and he love me
But i asked him , why he always treat me unfairly than his ex girlfriend .
I told boyfriend , that I admit I was jealous upon hearing stories that people have been saying about his past relationship .
I know we seldom meet each other , but I really hated when it came to a part
when they said " last time , ____ and Ameer macam glue "
Of course , they are , same school , same CCA and even same House

Yes , I told him i wanted to feel like a glue because all this while we are like stickers .
Hey , i dont even ask for any kisses , or even FORCE baby to kiss me infront of any of his friends / wait , I even never get any kiss from him within this 4 months journey

I told him , even if he said I was put first , I told him i felt like i was put last .
But i never care , first or maybe even last . Im still here for him .
I told him that I will still endure if it takes 10 years for us to be like a glue .

I admit boyfriend make me change for a better , he showed me whose friends whose fights
So ? Now , if you hated him because i change for a better
you are my fights .

You people out there may think , we are not gonna last
But to admit , i cant even predict the future . I'm still standing here up strong
hearing made-up stories , handling fights and shed tears .
We seldom met , we never kissed but we are still here
and our relationship and standing strong , 4 months coming 5 .
But his past , a month ? It falls .

One thing on how i kept this strong .
I admit my wrongs , I wrote him sweet love letters which believed could touch his heart
I told him how i felt , I never FORCE him
I make him know what i didnt like & I never do what he detest


I believed my boyfriend will still hold me , and i really pray hard for it
And i really thank god , he is patient when i messed up with rules

One of a kind , he never cheer me up !
and im still waiting for the first cheer up when im sad
because he will always laugh


Im thankful that he chose me instead of others .
Thanks for putting smile on my face

Muhd Ameer Bin Sulaiman , I love you