


Remember this day when I waited for you like half and hour and you blame the bus ?
Then i told ya , Okay give me your hand .. Then i said .. Happy 8 monthsary and you laughed ..
I irritated you inside the bus & you gave this stare then i was like .. i da tak takut lagi la !
Okay why is everything bashing back to me badly ...
Well another thing , Sorry Azlan at least you speak the truth .. & i understand the reason why you told me that
yup i appreciate it very well . Like what you said , lets build new friendship and im likely happy to have it .. Thanks for encouragement Alan ..
I cant slept last night / Thank god there's someone who wanna on the phone with me . I only had 1 hr rest then i received abang jamyl message !! Damn cuteee , lol !! I got ready for school .. It was so boring .. I guess i chit chat all the way , and got taken back for physics class !
wtf ? .....
No one can book me this week . I NEED TO CONCENTRATE ALL OUT !!
& im glad my art is on track .. haha .. huzaiyed remember the times when im with Dan back then , damn paiseh .. hahaha

It always doesnt happen like what we expected . From the start . Till now
You talk to me . You make me watch you . You bring me out ..
Everything was so different before the first fight you gave me ...
Remember the first move you gave .. It was only holding hands .. It was during our 3rd month
when i ask why ? You told me i think its serious ..
We didnt always spend time together that much dont we ? Because youre busy with practices and competitons and performance . I did endure though sometimes it do get up to my nerve when we need to cancel our outing .
Then we had very fun bus rides and jokes . Ameer remember what happen under the playground block ? It was joke isnt it ? The day you teach me how to ride your very nice bike ..
and i was worried that you will get a car accident . The day i woke up 7 am in the morning with my tak mandi face and meet you at teban ? The day we headed town .. and walk the whole town to find bloody topshop .. just to but one baju ? That was the sweetest day wasnt it ? You told me no we are not like them we are sweeter . Remember the day both of us kutuk your ex and it was hell damn funny when you show me her name sign and i merajuk like one idiot ?
and always remember the days i always send you back home .. ? and yes remember the suprising message you gave me when i was in chiang mai and i missed you sbdc ..
And i remember 6 july , you do dont you ? Remember i ask , can i hold your hand for the last time and you let me ? And we hug and i cried .. and you hold my head , wipe my tears , kiss me
trying to calm me down but i couldnt help myself .. and after that remember what happen during the youth park competition .. under the teban blocks .. you and me .. we knew its gonna happen . till today now and forever . Yes .. its so much pain to let it go

Okay you people see his picture here . means this post is specially for him
hey i think hard about what to write bro ..
This man up there .. He's the best . Though his words make me tear badly . I still appreciate everything .. I do treat him like my big brother from the start . Yes i knew i can count on him .
Now .. Whatever it is . I wont care about anything .. You always got the right guess about me
from who i like to what my mistakes are . You will give me one million examples to make me understand . Remember when we fought the other day , You called and said youre sorry ? You thought i was crying and you told me you treasure me .But i told you i was not but i did ..
Ya .. Dont worry brother i will dial you up if anyone wanna bash me up . HAHA !!
Thanks for all those things youre gonna say sooner or later .. i know im a troublemaker too
but not as bad .. Thanks for making me smiling .. after crying just now too .. I LOVE YOUUUU ..
ABANG JAMYL ! ... much respect , mira !! your very cute sister . haha
Izza / Baby Flizo ...
Yes .. i thank god for having you coming into my life
despite all those things .. I know you can be my shoulder to cry on
i know you can tell off whoever who is bad to me . I know you hated people to bully me
eventhough u bully me too . I always had fun being with you be it msging/otf or meeting each other . From the start / you really encourage me to stay strong dont you ? I always love you
and i wont leave you for anyone .. HAHA !! nude colour girl ..
Ella !
I love when you call me in a sudden time . Talk like nobody business
and always motivate me to go further . Only you know my darkest secret and i hope u keep it well . Ya .. you always kutuk me . from last time till now . But youre my cuttest joker of all .
I love you ella .. you will be my friend forever right ?
Grandma cousin came over .. ! I miss one whole troops yesterday .. But today some families came .
HAHA ! Wah , got this one very cute handsome guy !!! I didnt really see him but i steal a look ^.^ NOT BAD , your family gonna rewang for my bro's wedding . BE THERE !!i remember where he stay . Marsiling :D !!
One more day .. Alif Haiqal make me super mad because whyy ?! HE TOLD ME NIC MARC CHER IS MAD AT ME !! do u nic ? ans. me !!
nvrm ill fvuk a.h once he reach sg *.*which is idkw . but heck careeeee .
HAHA . i can wait to uh to jalan raya . Now got a lot of people ajak already ! HAHAHA ...
its like a big dream coming trueeee . padehal jalan raya aje -.-"but i will have funn .. TAKING LOTSA PICTURES ..
hey i fit into 4A1 or 4A2 ? got people jealous or not . Im not jyians students .. but nvrm :D i fit into 4A12 . muahaha ...
art sucks ... EH FASTER LA REPLY MY FB MESSAGE ... tsk .
i dont miss you la but miss a bit only ? Do u win anything ? HAHA !!
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Hello . Firstly .. Im dead tired . Feel so sick like nobody business ..
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Im feeling that mom is giving me a last minute plan now .. But whatever it is . I need to head jurong point for nail polish !!!!!! and fake eye lashes ..
Cannot wait to spend my raya money . Im waiting for mom to give me .. EEEEYA !!!
cannnot wait cannot wait , what is this so random uh ?
because very bored siaaaaal , dont wanna go to school tomorrow ! Tanak tanak tanak
Nak keluar raya eh .. Nak nak nak !! Nak saturday = 26 !!
Nak mondaaaaay .. agaknye ? da la byeeeee .. aku tenga sakit ni :(

Hi girls + ameera ! = lets eat @ APR please ?
I sign out from school just now for a good reason .
Cab-ed home , Im still thinking if i should go to school tomorrow
only having two subjects lesson before our service .. I want to go for lesson
but not service . I dont wanna stand 1 hr just to worship god together with fellow farsians
Clap 2 hours for those kids too ? Should i go or not ?
Im going out with Liy tomorrow .. But i need to meet ameer ? How !!
Im fvuking stress now .
We talked about a lot of things for small little secrets to a big ones , from the one we hated the most to the one we love the most .
Secrets after secrets , Encouragements after encouragements i admit i was about to cry .
But hey i keep it going , i just talk about it .. & please she just told she hated me last time . HAHA
I told her i miss izza , she asked me to call izza , its not gonna happen .. whatever it is IZZA , i miss you a lot !!!!
Ella really make me smile , ya she make me believe myself . I mean thats kinda hard , we even plan which school to go next year . Lol & the boots !! OMG the boots .. tell me you miss me ? she do ! Please study ella , i wanna see you succeed , dont worry i never regretted having you as a friend eventhough izza and you bullied me at times , you guys were there when i needed someone the most .. thanks for the call .. talk to me always .. i love you ella b. !! keep on rocking the stage and contact to your dance world !!!!!!!
Dear A. i wanna hear you say you miss me ? you miss the white tee dope shoes ? the 143 bus ?
- cheating and lies ? dont worry , youre the 1st person i forgive the very 1st sec after takbir raya

Tell me , i can count you .
Say youre proud because you still the one i pick and not that boy .
Hear my stories , see my tears ...
Youre the only one i can depend now & you know it dont you ?
When we will be the next time are we wearing white tee's and dickies with dope shoes to town ?
take long bus rides and me ? helping you dig your nose & you do my hair . Wait for your dance practise to over , even hours ... The usual bus stop where we lay our feelings out . & hugs ... just hug .. and grip hands . I miss you ..
" I feel so bad . I dont know what to say now ? What am I thinking ? Why am I confusing myself ? Why didnt I pick up his call and call myself stupid when he needs to fly off ? Then why i dont wanna be his friend anymore ? Was it because someone in my past make me happy again ? Now is this for real ? I dont know ? Something is too fast . Please help me ?Weird isnt it ? When someone who always hurt you a lot became so good you tend to hate someone who are so good to you . Isnt it nature ? I cant say anything . Whatever it is , i hope no rush things for me . I wanna admit , i still cant move on . & the guy in my heart will never change this fast .. because we are still close .
I cant get overboard then regret in future . Maybe he's not any normal human . He is Someone who i gave my respect too ? Now when we are close .. everything change too fast very fast .. i still luv ameer , I CANT DENY IT ANY FURTHER ... & you , make sg proud
A. promised me a good deal a while ago . I knew he could make me happy . I had a great time with my school girls @ seoul garden . I saw gwen stefani . Hey till now I still think im in dreamland . Whatever it is we spend two hours there .. Ceneleisure for neoprints lastly taxi ride home ..
Im thinking about something bad . Its so confusing . The one above , i need your mercy ..
You have not tell me about it A. tell me something I was hoping for ? You will dont you ? You promised dont you . I miss you and tell me you know you will not be forgiven no matter how bad am I now ..
One of my heroes is Barbie. She may not do anything, but she always looks great doing it.
I got my eye on you boy, and when I get my eye on something, it's like search and destroy.
There is no such thing as faith, And trust, And pixie dust.
I try, But its to hard to believe. I try, But I can't see what you see.
My whole world is changing, I don't know where to turn. I can't leave you baby, But I can't stay and watch the sitting burn . Watch it burn.
I try and try, To understand, The distance in between: The love I feel, The things i fear, I dearly say good dream. I can finally see it. Now I have to believe: All those precious stories. All the world is made of faith, And trust, And pixie dust.
- peterpan , return to neverland
I tried , Now you prove me that you are giving me something I was hoping for
tell me about it .. will you ? tell me about the whole story ..
I admit it can be a dream come true but somehow the feeling is so akward .. very i shall say ?
I dont know how to say this but as time goes by , my heart just go faster but when I think of A ..
my heart beep slowly . Im not saying he will be mine but now im saying he really make me happy . Hey , i still dont believe we did chat on the phone last night . I didnt know that he spotted me everywhere . I want everything to be in my dream not reality because im not strong yet .
just enjoy the pictures .. !!










lastly thanks to ( insert name ) for layaning me while i was at gran mama house
then i headed geylang alone ! letme repeat alone to buy some stuffs , planned to go JOOCHIAT
END UP @ SOME KAMPUNG PLACES .. sos for help !! thank god some makcik show me the way out so went town !!!
went ion to buy heels = cant find , fep = gorgeous heels !!
then rini came accompanying me (2yrs last day raya shopping w her)
9pm head geylang ... GET TO EAT MY NASI AYAM , luv it !!! and we bought ayam madu
super nice ..
since we were so boring , we came up to a plan to call everyone on my hp list !
just to wish them : happy hari raya ! hello , kinda being unique rather than messaging 2-3 pages
but i didnt call the ones who received my v rude h.r message
walk around geylang , feeling-feeling meriah laaa -.-" so tired .. sit chit chat . saw appy . saw zack . saw ahdan . saw apoh . saw emelda . saw ira kenet . saw aloooot of people .. waited for rini daddy , give up . cab-ed home !!
I was complaining to someone that i havent got my heels , guess what ? HAHA
he complain to me because he wanna received $ us .
So i guess you go and start practising 24hrs ...when you rep sg best , you win : BUY ME DICKIES !!!! no , JC BAG ... haha !!! ( you can do everything through him who gives you strength)
why is everyone going away during RAYA SEASON :( ... MAKE ME SAD ONLY

I swear I miss this man up here .. I knew no matter how hot that bboy who rep sg best ... said
That man up there hold my heart so tight , I luv you a lot - please take not ... luv , ms !
So i headed geylang with mom & aunt . The first person i saw was N .. then goes a lot of people
but i pretend as if they were strangers . N said he saw my babyboy walking @ teh tarik .. Haziq too !! Lol , he said baby was with family ... okay , actually i just wanna say i miss him a lot :(
Tomorrow my boys will fly over to china for their soccer trip :( , so they wont get to celebrate raya nevertheless , may god bless you boys over there . Miss me okay ? okay !! I was mad because they told me last minute and I was planning to meet some of them tomorrow .. Please alif haiqal , ask mama to keep me green packets & nic .. you told me how great was The One above .. appreciate it lots ... Take careee.. im so gonna wake up @ 6 am !! please god bless their journey , they are my very cute soccer boys ...
He added me on MSN !!!! so we had midnight chat and he suddently say this " you look pretty and cute " , WHAT WAS MY REACTION ?! JUMPING UP AND DOWN !!!! haha ...youre cute too .. nyehehehe
BY THE WAY : I MISS AM'(s) & ALIF HAIQAL , NIC AND SHANNON only !
thanks for my readers for layaning them since i MAL NAK LAI
fyi : mal nak lai ( gombak crew words , since last yr -.- )
haha .. zimah ! zimah , i really DID SMILE TILL NOW ABOUT BBOY ( insertname)
sasha must be jealous if she knows whooo !? who ? who ? HEHE ..
curious right someone caught my heart ? ... go figure go figureee ...
nah im not gonna move on with him , dont worry dear readers
my heart are still locky locky ..
update later on .. im out with my mom !!! go geylang again -.-""
he rep' sg best !
We are also fabulous girls which can afford not so typical stuffs like everyone started to wear0.0 . Oh please , im so no jealous of you girls . My girls are much more better ...
Btw ? you thought that babyg post is for you ? LOL , wait ? i cant even see any label things on you ... so that post = TOTALLY NOT FOR YOU !
im not jealous because my girls are rich and cute .
im not jealous because my girls are outstanding ...
im not jealous because my girls are not typical
definately im not jealous my girls are the girls that its hard to find
and of course we are not typicals .. ( even if you said malay are typicals )
not every malays are one ...
oh ya , the " mira on my tagboard , thats so not me ... -.-"
I need to know you are here , So I can hold you near
Late at night , I sit and cry . I just ask myself why ?
I make you mad , why i make you sad
Now I am lonely without you I need you bad
When we were together , We would go town and talk
Now we are seperated and we dont even talk
I make you confused , I make you blue
But baby my world does not turn without you
We had our little stupid fights but we worked them out to make it right
Everything we said and talk about is gone .
I know what I did was not right it was wrong
I should of never let you go I need you by my side . I took a wrong turn
& now I am on the bumpy ride . I am trying to get back on the track
Maybe Iwill get lucky and get you back .
Now we broke up and our dreams together blew up in smoke .
If we are meant to be it is called fate
I have a lot of times for you baby .
I know your friends may think I am a bad girl .
But deep down inside I would not lie
I hope we stay close and never grow apart
Im not jealous of your girls because they arent any superstar . I was not kick out , I wanted myself to get rid of you guys . Im not jealous . Hold on ? For what ... put on your thinking cap
btw , i hate the world babyG , sounds so typical between typical people who act like one label kids . eeeeeeeee - "
No choice but i really say I hated them a lot . Izza make me stop crying by this very long message , i read it a couple of times and close my eyes . Faizah promised me something while hetty also gave me a long message which i hold my tears ( i was in class ) include ella ! she prayed for me .. see dont tell i got no one who can standby me
Izza knew i was weak when it came to this very part of my life . Faizah knew how sad was i feeling . Hetty knows i was weak .. Ella , she know i cant get bullied . But hell , i try to be strong because i can count them on . You talk about me , what do you get ? A million or happy because your grudges towards me ? .. Think ! Think ! Think !
after all , i get to pick who ! who ! who ! it was unbelievable wasnt it ? because i expected someone else but it turn out to be the one whose v close to me . OH NO -.-"
Because i guess it wasnt fair for me to go through this problems
So i went out and headed 7-11 .. got myself chips and chocs i know i wasnt feel so alright
i kept on walking and get myself mangoes . slowly i walk back slowly and eat it slowly .
I know my tears are gonna fall out but i pinch my hand as hard as i could . I know i cant stand this any longer . I hate that bunch of kids who i thought could be there for me ..
BUT I WAS ALL WRONG , THEY ARE MY ENEMIES .
but hey i gotta be strong , its human nature to talk about others . even if they believe or not ?
what can i do , lets wait till everyything will go wrong . wait till it attack my brain cells . and take over my life . Then tell me you regereted for talking bad about me . I luv faizah ...
Now , i miss A . He's having a plan . so i guess he's not gonna online ..
it was so sudden when i was dreaming about the past during chem class ?
and well there goes my mood .. what can i do ? im wrote him letter just now .. :(

hahaha . okay maybe because im lazy .. LOL .. to pass his dickies and Juicy stickers for erlina too
and i did ask him to watch the video on my blog ..
- he didnt want to but he know my voice is cute and he kutuk say " umur u da brape "
excuse me , a lot of girls wants my voice yo baby yo !!
HAHA . okay anyone knows this number ? /93972938 ?
keep on texting me . so irritating !
omg faizah message keeps on running up her in my mind :( and ella ? all the very best . heeeheee
you both knows what we talk about , but of course la different topic ..
MOUTH SHUTS !!!!!!! I LUV YOU GIRLS , DANCE VOGUE BOLEH BUAT AKU MATI
aisyah , melda , qeelia , nadya , erin - nak nak nak !!







thanks faris for sending me home ...
omg , i had super a lot of fun .. and i was not being me i guess ?
i had fun laughing and bitching , vain girls ... I can go crazy
Sarcasm LA.
xoxo, Sarcasm LA.

-never thought ill see you again my love for you will never change
you
look me i look at you , close your eyes count to two , one two open your eyes
you see a suprise its me infront of you hope will be my boo
everymorning
everynight think about you by my side , hate me love me you decide
okay i didnt steal the verse from anyone , its from baby song ..
i hope there wont be any war today ... at last im out with my ladies ..
and idk what to wear , wtf ?
I admit , i wear dickies .. becauseeee of Ameer . okay da bye :]